Child’s! was all in a ruthless mess.
After homeschooling was then, accepted into a four-year university with College of St. Mary’s another name as a dual program while enrolled in high school earns college credits and High School Diploma.
Raising two toddlers in the Midwest where they’d attended four-year College of St. Mary’s an were able to get college hands on experiences. Had I not taken that route — in a private dormitory as a non-resident campus student we’ve might have be still arguing about whose right or wrong in the situation verses children living with their grandmother until mom are able to return back to work, as a Homemaker and Full-Time student.
There I’d presumed to sublease a two-bedroom condominium in Hartford County where I faced illegal evictions having no choice to ask my parents can I stay with them and use their vehicles. Decided to stay in the inner city on public transportation near the light rail, metro bus, metro subway.
As, mentioned being a dormitory campus student resident: the Vice President of College of St. Mary’s then, was called into the office an says “we don’t believe you have 3.9 G.P.A., “residing from THE WIRE Baltimore Maryland” that statement stemmed from Vice President behind creating a fake MySpace Page to spy on me and, were placed on Academic Probation 2006.
An incident had occurred on campus where three college students took the initiative to create confusion and deliberately lied about distributing the third & fourth floor. “What? cause am freshman”. Whether or not I’d observed trouble those were plotting against me— the first year was entirely adjusting coming from a Hip Hop culture --, not ,brought up in a diversified mixed population.
Lived by means of education discrimination— how I dealt with prejudice, racism, employment discrimination. Learning about subjects of art and work and limitations of boundaries: one side keeping it professional and other side affects my personal characteristics and traits. It was furthermore than personal characteristics traits there is always someone observing the outlook of your discussions entirely. So, as African American decent— learned that it’s how others were raised — then, too, how many young people don’t share the same opportunities I received regardless of race, color, nationality.
Found myself closed in and not letting anyone near because completing one project and finishing the task. It was that I was too, independent as a child — it was that I, then now are adjusting to the new environment, at times it were difficult finding American English words to describe how I felt a posed to, how I was handling the adjustments.
During, this time I was already trying to cope with ex-boyfriend living another life --while we're in a long distance relationship—my schedules were so hectic, to fly on weekends back to Baltimore would have been a great expense, dealt with trust issues, went through it phases of not wanting no one around during the time of healing, gone through depression at a miserable time 😑 why is this happening too me—granted I know I wasn’t at my prettiest stages, but quietness was an urgency, wasn’t getting that! Every-time I turned around there were someone asking for something an I would give, give, give than to giving back to my community, so I’d stop 🛑 an said I’m not doing nothing else for anyone. Child’s! was all in a ruthless mess.